I just learned something new about myself. I realized that I have been spending a fair amount of time, in my own head, day dreaming, fantasizing and working out scenes that I doubt will never happen in true life. And that my heart had been completely taken and caged by these fantastical imaginations.
Completely drowned with my own imagination for the past years over a certain boy band; whenever I see them perform on stage, dance and sing all I can see is: Perfection and excellence. And with that every moment I will always ask myself: Why? Why am I so engrossed with these five talented people?
Every waking moment of my life they are always there. Whenever I get off my bed I will always greet their faces printed on the posters a ‘good morning’. A habit that I can’t simply shake off from my being. Singing their songs while taking a bath and eating my food while in front of the computer while browsing their current activities, simply they are no doubt part of my daily routine.
If I could have my own time table, I am sure that 99% of my time is dedicated to them. It feels like they are my world. I am an addict right? I don’t care anyway. Even if they drain every single penny that I have; even if they make my eyes red every night and look like a frog from too much crying, I don’t care, because I love them.
Whenever I feel so down, just by hearing their names I feel so alive. They are that kind of person. They changed me and I thanked them for that.
Did you ever experienced to have millions of friends supporting you? Well, I already experienced that because of them. Did you ever find big people in the country talking to you? I already have because of them. Have you ever feel so proud in your life? Yes, I have been so proud because of them.
So many questions that you can ask me, but there will always be the same answer and it will always be because of them. Have you been like this? So in love.
With a blink of an eye, I saw myself already falling deeply for them. With every breath I thank God for finding them and giving me the chance to love them.