You Can Never Blame Me.

It has been six years since I first laid my eyes to the most gorgeous person that God had ever made. His hair is platinum blonde, his eyes was so round like those of the dolls, his nose is so perfectly pointy and his lips is so pouty that you will be urged to captured those and feel its softness.

I watched him from afar; I witnessed all his struggles, hardships, and achievements. Oh! Right, I already saw how his hair colour changes from blonde to black, black to brown, brown to blonde, and I can’t almost count how many times his hair changes it’s styles.

Wait a minute, don’t mistook me, I don’t love him and I know it will never happen. I hate guys who have vices and he is one of those. He smokes, he drinks a lot, and he has so many tattoos in his body, like those of the line, “TVfXQ Soul,” "hope to the end", "the pleasures of the mighty are the tears of the poor" and "A song will outlive all sermons in the memory" on his back, “always keep the faith” and “defesto neminem” on his chest, and the recent “junsu and yuchun”, that’s many right?

I will never like this guy, even he is so cute in the camera, even his body is so perfect that I want to cuddle him and even he was so matured that it really turns me on, I will never ever like him and I would never admit that I already did.

Yes, I fall inlove with a guy that I could never have. We live in a different country like miles miles away from each other that I will need to use a plane just to see him. We both speak a different language, that I really hope he will study hard and learn English for us to have at least a possible communication. We don’t share the same culture that it is so hard for us to have something to talk to. And the very worst fact is, it was so impossible for him to know me personally, Oh how I wish. There was no chance for us to be together, but it doesn’t stop me to yearn and love him.

He is a very gentle person. He always check if his member had already ate and if they are good, something that a true mother would do.

He is a good cook. He is the one who cooks for their group and when someone appreciate his food, that will be the best moment of his life. If you only know how much happiness it could bring to him if you praise his cooked food.

He is a very positive person. That moment when the truth surfaced in the internet that he was only adopted, yes it was very hard for him but he accepted it wholeheartedly and still welcomed his biological family.

He is a hardworking person. He doesn’t really know how to sing and his classmates usually teased him about that but he had set his goals and practiced so hard. Now, his voice was like those of an angel. I really respect him because of that.

He is a very humble person. He had already received so many achievements but he always keeps his low profile and bows to his “sunbaes.” You will not know how much tears he had shed behind every achievements and how fulfilled he was every time someone appreciates their group.

He is a very honest person. He supposed to be the leader of their group but he passed to someone he trust on because he know himself too much that, that kind of role is not appropriate to him.

He is so imperfectly perfect person that he was truly marked inside my heart, mind and soul. So never blame me if I’m like this, so crazily accepting this unrequited love that I have to the guy named KIM JAEJOONG. My one and only HERO.